A Little Thinking In Between

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Life is pretty amazing no? There is so much beauty, saddness, inspirations, happines.... and yet we are all running around in circles trying to figure out what the hell we are doing and where the hell we are going. I was watching "The Invention of Lying" the other day (which I highly recomend) and the premise was the world was lived soley on truth's. Everyone always spoke what was on their minds - even if it was hurtful. People believed that when you die, you do into the ground because there were no true truths that life existed after death. Richard Gervais character becomes the only man capable of lying and as he sits next to his dying mother who is fearful of the end tells her all the joys of the afterlife...that everyone gets a mansion in the sky, and everyone you know and love is there even if they are still alive and everyone is just....happy. The mom after hearing of this is happy and calm and joyful knowing that there is in fact - something else other there. As word gets around and people start to learn about the afterlife they begin to reach out to Richard Gervais's character. One of the individuals asked in a group:

"Why don't we just all end our lives so we can get our mansion and be happy?"

And the response was perfect...

"Maybe we're being tested, maybe this is all a test"

And that sentence has really stuck with me - maybe we are being tested. We get tested with ourselves, with others, with our careers, with our faith.... and I question myself, how am I doing? I think other day I suprised myself as to "passing" a test. Sometime last week, I was feeling sorry for myself. I was annoyed/frustrated with some things in my life that I wont bore you with. But nonetheless, I was in a spot where I sometimes find myself - always looking for the next best thing.... I vented my frustrations to my mom and mike who were both very supportive and understanding. And as I was pondering my frustrations later on I began to think - "WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!?"

I am so blessed. God has blessed me with so many beautiful people and things in my life that it's hard to stay frustrated/sad. I also have been so humbled by some other blogs I read where people are going through some really tough times, truly heart-wrenching stuff and here I am bitching about the most insignificant things (in the grand scheme) and also thinking about other people I know and stuff they are going through....I quickly got over my pity party and quickly turned my mood around. Sometimes, life needs to bitch slap you across the face and say "SNAP OUT OF IT! LIFE IS GOOD!" and that is what happened. Life is good, and I know that, I truly am grateful for all the good fortune in my life and all my blessings. I realize that life can get frustrating and annoying, but I am glad I quickly realized my blessings and "passed" my test.

Everyday I am happy... maybe not ALL day everyday but I am happy everyday. I hope that I can continue to be the best person I can.... even if I have an off day.